I have been studying. A lot.
We spent the weekend at my mom’s house where everyone but I went bowling. I stayed at the house and studied. I did take a short break from the books to go on a walk. The boys got tired and convinced their Grandma to turn back early. Husband, Dexter the dog, and I kept walking a bit further. It was a nice moment of simple solitude (can a person share a moment of solitude or does that go against the definition?). Either way, it was a moment that revived and grounded me. The wind was just the right degree of chilly and the air slightly salty. Just perfect.
Tomorrow there is an interview with the college. And, of course, more studying. I shall stay focused and grounded and when I feel as though I can not do these things, I will breath in and fill my lungs with the memory of that most perfect of air.
Shoes On The Wrong Feet 
I love those little moments. How did the interview go?
Thanks for asking, Jodi. Apparently it went well enough, for I got an unofficial offer into the program this afternoon. It is unofficial because I have to pass the WEST-B test (state required) to be accepted. And so I study on…
Hang in there…
I truly admire what you’re doing, because i know i’d never have the will or the strength to go back to school.
Good luck!
Thank you! Everytime I have a panic attack and think that I am just crazy for even trying, I tell myself that trying is all I can do . As long as I try and do my best with the time and materials I have, then I should feel good about it. Sometimes this pep talk works, sometimes not. 🙂
I think you have more will and strength than you even know. Don’t sell yourself short – if there is something you want to have or be – try for it.
Good luck and congrats on going back to school!