And Then There Was Carter

Four years ago, 2 hours and 14 minutes shy of Mother’s Day, Carter was born.  He took one look around, expressed his distaste for the cold bright world he was born into by crying about it and then promptly peed all over the doctor.

He was four pounds four ounces and seventeen inches long, born at the gestational age of thirty-one weeks and six days.  To us he was a big baby, weighing twice as much as his brother Cody’s birth weight and was an additional three inches longer.

Due to Cody’s very early arrival, my pregnancy with Carter was treated as high risk.  I was placed on “modified” bed rest.  I was told to do as little as possible.  I should limit my walking.  I should not lift anything over five pounds.  I should not vacuum (hooray!)  Most of this was very hard to do (giving up vacuuming was surprisingly easy) considering I had an eighteen month old who had speech and physical therapy along with many other medical appointments.  Then there were my many appointments and all of these required getting him in and out of his car seat without lifting him.  I learned that collapsible stools are quite handy.

I could prattle on about the painful injections of 17-hydroxyprogesterone caproate I had to have in my rump every two weeks (Hi, it’s nice to see you again, please bend over) or the transvaginal ultrasounds I was subjected to every two weeks as well.  With each ultrasound I had to drink what seemed like gallons of water several hours before the appointment and then try not to pee on myself or the technician while they first did a abdominal ultrasound.  Yeah, good times right there.  I could tell you about the many fetal fibronectin tests taken and how we held our breath waiting for the results.  All of this just to keep baby in.

And then there were my hopes of having a natural birth.  This was my last chance.  The hospitals in our area covered by our insurance did not do VBACs so my only hope was a birthing center over an hour from our house.  It was a very nice place and I was really hoping it would work out for us.  The only problem, other than the distance from our house, was that the baby needed to be born at the gestational age of thirty-two weeks or later.  I remember jokingly asking the nice doctor if I could give birth there if I was thirty-one weeks and six days and he very non-jokingly said that I may not.

So it was that I started having regular and heavy contractions exactly one day shy of thirty-two weeks.  Eight hours shy to be exact.  We dropped Cody off at the place where he went for in home day care a couple days a week, friends and neighbors of ours, as we headed for the hospital.  I cried all the way there, selfishly wanting a nature birth and at the same time terrified for our baby.

Once we got settled into a room and it was apparent that we were going to be having a baby sooner rather than later I realized that they could not make me have a C-section.  My doctor, a woman I had never met before, told me what I already knew about the hospital’s policy against VBACs.  Then with a wink and a nod she gave me some paperwork to sign that stated that, while my doctor recommended a C-section, I was choosing not to have one.  I was told that since I was refusing a C-section in a hospital with a policy not to do VBACs there would be no chance later for me to change my mind and get an epidural since they would not have an anesthesiologist on call for me.  That was fine with me – bring on the natural birth I so wanted.

Holy crap!  I don’t know how women do that.  To state the obvious, it hurts. A lot.  I was not in full on, primal animal sound, hand crushing (sorry about that Husband), get this f-ing thing out of me right now, labor for very long.  In fact they tried to get me not to push as they were waiting for the pediatric respiratory therapist, who was at home and on call.  One simply can not wait to push when the time is nigh.

Carter pretty much breezed through his stay at the level two NICU.  He was only there for three weeks.  I think we got some strange looks at first as we were pretty calm about the whole thing even when he required intubation and a PICC line.  He was a strong little guy.  His heart murmur did not get to the point of requiring a PDA ligation.  He did not suffer a cerebral hemorrhage.  The long and scary laundry list of awful medical things that can happen to preemies just did not happen.  He was just under five pounds when we brought him home.

I would like to say that he was an easy baby but that would be a HUGE lie.  He was colicky to the point of crying for hours every evening.  Nothing, nothing, would console him.  After his long colicky babyhood he became a terrible two well before he was two.  Our sweet boy sure knew how to throw a tantrum.  We have a dent in our freezer to prove it.  Don’t ask.

Somewhere along the way Carter became pretty rad.  He is funny and smart.  He is sweet, often telling me several times a day out of the blue that he loves me.  Husband and I quite often look at each other and ask how did this happen, when did he get to be so _____? (cute, sweet, kind, angelic, handsome, awesome).  Don’t get me wrong, he still can throw a tantrum with the best of them he just does it less often.

I can’t imagine my life without him.  Happy Birthday you sweet amazing little Carter boy.

Baby Carter 1

Baby Carter 2

Baby Carter 3

Brothers Together

Carter is Awesome

About Shoes

I am an elementary school teacher, a former microbiologist, a mom to a herd of two boys, and a grilled cheese sandwich and beer connoisseur.
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28 Responses to And Then There Was Carter

  1. Jodi Stone says:

    You have two little treasures them, I’ve enjoyed reading about their births. I’m glad Carter’s birth was easier for you.

    I had one pregnancy which resulted in two girls. I had to have a c-section back before the ‘bikini’ cut. They cut me from stem to stern. I vowed never to do that again. The thought of them cutting me again was more than enough. 🙂

    However had I had another pregnancy, I would have chosen a vaginal birth as well.

    Happy Birthday Carter, you’re one lucky little boy!

    • shoes says:

      It was nice, although at times emotional, to look back on and write up my boys’ birth stories. Since this is my first year blogging I though it would be a good thing to share.

      For many reasons, Carter’s birth was by far the easiest. The recovery from the C-section was awful compared to the vaginal birth. He is the child that will give us a run for our money, so they say. He knows what he wants and considers no alternative but to get it.

      We were planning a small party for him with friends, balloons, and a pinata but between friends being sick, mother’s day weekend, and graduations we only got one yes and one maybe. I think we will scrap it and go to the zoo with Grandma. We should have nice weather so a special trip to the zoo followed by ice cream sounds about right.

  2. muddledmom says:

    Aw. So sweet! Hope it’s a wonderful day.

    • shoes says:

      He had a good time sharing a special birthday treat of brownies with his friends at his morning preschool. He has requested grilled hot dogs for dinner and a chocolate cake. 🙂

  3. Momma Margi says:

    LOVE stories like these!! 🙂

  4. mimijk says:

    What a wonderful story – I had two early birds and identify greatly with some of your story. Most importantly, what a glorious family you have and what wonders you have brought into the world…

  5. mommysaidaswearword says:

    Ah, you baby stores make me cry. Makes me think of those first days when my brother was home, all 5 lbs of him, amazing what babies can do. As always, you knock my socks off, Shoes.

    • mommysaidaswearword says:


    • shoes says:

      It is pretty crazy to think just how tiny some of those little guys start out as, especially when they seem to grow up right before your eyes. I am rather shocked that I have a 6 and a 4 year old. What happened?
      Thank you for the compliment – very sweet of you. 🙂

  6. Ok so you’re saying my dreams of “natural childbirth” this time around will become a reality of pure hell right 🙂 Why i’m being so stubborn about it I have no clue lol. Happy Birthday Carter! I can’t wait until the day I get to meet you your brother and your momma! Yeah for Spring Babies!

    • shoes says:

      Oh no,no,no – only pure hell when you are in the moment – but I would not have missed that experience for anything. There is an importance to the pain and a sense of connection with ancient times knowing that you are sharing an experience that women through the ages have also been through. It is very primal, the birthing of life naturally and I am glad I had the chance to know what it is like.
      We love us some Spring Babies around here!! 🙂

  7. Hetterbell says:

    I hope Carter had a wonderful birthday! I love the way you wrote about his arrival in this world. 🙂

  8. I am so glad your story had a happy ending!! I know how hard the worrying/waiting game is with babies and special circumstances. I am so very glad you have your special little guy despite the odds! 🙂

    • shoes says:

      Looking at him today, you would never suspect he was an early bird baby. You are right, that waiting and worrying when you just don’t know about what lies ahead for them (and consequently you) is so difficult.

  9. Nancy says:

    Happy Birthday Carter! What a cutie. I especially love the picture of him sleeping on the blue blanket with the stars!

  10. fmlinardo says:

    I won’t be a dope and say I can relate to anything that occurred before our 1 pounder was born, as I was just a bystander/hand holder. But all the ultra-sounds, water, bed-rest etc… very familiar. Thanks for the flashbacks.

    • shoes says:

      Due to all the extra precautions I can’t say I really enjoyed being pregnant but if it helped bring about the happy ending then it was all worth it. I hope your family and especially your little one are all doing well.

  11. shoes says:

    Reblogged this on Shoes On The Wrong Feet and commented:

    As I am short on time and this is the story of Carter’s arrival into the world that I wrote last year, I thought I would reblog this. Today Carter turns a whole hand old – the big 05! Happy birthday my sweet and amazing boy. You have personality in spades and a heart of gold. You melt this mother’s heart…

  12. Deborah the Closet Monster says:

    I am already in something of a sniffly place today, so this pushed me right over. Thank you. Happy birthday, little fella!

  13. Wow! This is another one that I missed so I’m glad you reposted! It’s amazing the things you have gone through and have come out the other side with such positive results! I hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day and Happy Birthday to Carter!!

    • shoes says:

      My kids are awesome in all that they have been through and all that they have taught me in having to navigate the medical minefield that was their babyhood. Glad you had a chance to check this out. I had a lovely Mother’s Day (hope you did too) and the Birthday was quite the bash with ice cream and all the toppings you can think of!

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