Tomorrow I start my last week of full time student teaching. I can’t believe how quickly it has gone by. I am trying not to panic as I job search, fill out very time consuming on-line applications to districts without any current open positions in hopes of being ready when they do open.
Last Wednesday during last recess I got a call on the phone in my classroom that Cody was in the health room at his school. He had a seizure in his classroom. He was still non-responsive when they called me. It had been over 2 minutes – no one was exactly sure of the time that had passed. I fault no one for this as I know that when I am caught in that space where my son is turning blue, can not talk to me, and is somewhere else and I don’t know when he will be back, that time is elusive. It is not easy to make concrete – it fades in and out and sometimes it ceases to exist at all. I have tried to describe this feeling many times before but I simply cannot – it is petrifying.
My mentor teacher was in the room so when I dropped everything, panic clawing at my throat so I could hardly speak, she tried to stop me for a moment to get me to pause, to breath, to be ok to drive. I could not pause – there was no time for even a slight catch of breath. I have anti-seizure meds in my purse. I ran. I am a seven minute drive away – even with the red light.
Cody is fine. He spend the day with Husband the following day. I had a meeting with my principal that I did not feel I could cancel (I had canceled on her the previous week due to Carter throwing up in class). I barely made it through that day and I have to confess that I was far from a great teacher on that particular day.
Tomorrow I turn 40. A large populous of people in our small town are aware of this due to the fact that Carter felt the need to pronounce to the whole of Costco and Albertson’s in his loud and proud 5 year old voice that his momma would be 40 tomorrow. Sigh. I don’t want to feel old. I don’t want to feel tired. But today I do. Maybe tomorrow I will feel better.
It has been a long week. I have had a glass of wine with dinner and feel that it is in my best interest to not continue answering the 7 of the 9 questions I still need to complete for a job addendum – a job that closes on the 9th.
And so time steadily goes on – foot over foot over foot.
I kissed my boys on their foreheads tonight as I tucked them securely under their covers. I told them how lucky I was having them in my life.
I am lucky. My life is good. There are challenges and struggles, but we all have them, have we not?
And so, once again my Simple Sunday post is not really simple. But at least it is Sunday so I have half of it right.
Shoes On The Wrong Feet 
Special b’day wishes coming all the way from India just for you 😊
Happy Birthday- enjoy your day!
This picture of Cody and Carter is priceless. Really, what a demonstration of love. More birthday wishes coming your way. The world is better because you are in it! xoxo “Robin”
I just can pretend how you felt when got a phone call about Cody. As I mum I would know how to deal with that. But you are very, very strong women, even that you all right down here. You are Super Mum!
Best wishes on your Birthday. It is hard to cross the line every 10 years, but you will used to know it. I am trying to say myself- it is just 40. I know many women who fell full of energy in 50 and 60. But then I look in the mirror and notice that need to start using stronger face cream….:) In general it is all about our thinking, isn’t it???:) Happy Birthday!:)
that must be so scary and i’m sure you just go into overdrive when these events happen. i’m glad that your son was taken care of right away and that you are so close. i’m so sorry you’re all going through this.
i was 40 when i went back to school to become a teacher and change careers too., though my children were older then, so at least i didn’t have to worry about that, but i had to work and sub to make enough money to live through the process, so i really didn’t sleep through that period. also, my youngest daughter just finished her student teaching this past friday, after she went back to school to change careers to become a teacher in her 30s, and has 2 little ones. somehow it all turns out okay in the end. trust me.
How scary — What is the proper reaction to help a child who is having a seizure?
Impressive you knew what day of the week it was. That is something I don’t bother with any longer. it’s either school day or not 😉
I am glad Cody is fine. Must have been scary 😦
Happy Birthday ! xoxo Fanni
What a crazy few days for you – hope things calm down for you. I also hope your boys know how lucky they are to have you in their lives, and not just the other way around. Sending lots of hugs your way.
Happy birthday!! I am SO glad that Cody is ok…
That must have been terrifying. I’m glad everything worked out alright in the end. It certainly sounded like you did need a little time to recharge after all that. I hope you had a nice birthday. 🙂